So it's been 14 days today. That is if I manage to stay off the booze today.
I am going to start to distance myself from sobriety as a topic of discussion and move towards more of a day to day movement toward finding enlightening and mood fullfilling activities to take up my time between drinking. Does this mean I will drink again one day? I don't know, maybe. I think that, as my girlfriend put it, I can't just stand up and say drinking is wrong and then hang it up on a cross and tell everyone to believe in it. That'd be asking too much, and demanding a lot. Simply I am going to increase the intervals between use. Whether it be a month, a week, a year, and have a direction/purpose to alleviate myself from the daily need to consume alcohol.
I've come up with a plan.
I am going to allot myself 7 dollars a week for me to use on a dashing, fleeting, and completely self-fulfilling consumable. One week it might be a delicious bowl of Pho Noodle. One week it might be a huge murderous carnitas burrito. Another week it might be blanking out at a local arcade machine with a soda pop. Another week might be cruising the mall with a smoothie and people watching. Another week might be new strings for my guitar. Some weeks I'll do nothing with it and just save it. This will accomplish a great deal of things:
1. Make my life simpler, less expensive, and more thought-provoking.
2. Make sobriety easier to deal with.
3. Make a non-sober moment something out of the ordinary and special, rather than daily and monotonous.
Here's a big rah rah for half way there!